Black Holes and Revelations

like minded

2009-10-16T12:59:49Z

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1220444/Im-24-I-want-sterilised-wedding.html
rock on sister!!

:D

2009-09-26T00:33:12Z

i like yoga.

step one of the Healthier Lifestyle plan is under way. light and regular exercise, and what better thing to do than yoga every day. i need to keep this up for a week, then i'll introduce some cardio every day.

my plan - i can not diet. so i need to counter the calories i eat with exercise.

dream

2009-09-21T01:01:34Z

i had a weird dream last night.
i was at a big house, sort of rural estate thing. and there was ivy or a plant growing up the outside walls. and lots of it.
and on the plant there was hundreds of snail shells, empty, dangling from spider web threads. loads of them all over the ivy plant. and in a space, on the wall where the plant hadn't grown there was this big old spider. totally flat against the wall with its long lets splayed out flush with the wall. a bit like the spider on venom in spiderman. or like this only... scaled UP http://img198.imageshack.us/i/14082009413.jpg/
(and btw that's technically not a spider but part of the arachnid family anyway.. seen them in Wales in my mum's porch).

yeah a spider that kills snails.

so it's working... i show the spiders that i'm on their side in real life.... and they're on my side in my dreams.

:'(

2009-08-30T02:22:45Z

i'm sulking because i've watched last friday's Smackdown and we've lost our Jeff.
lets hope he doesn't stay away from the WWE 'too' long :)

:)

2009-08-24T01:32:00Z

this guy is amazing.

just wow

2009-08-22T01:38:25Z

oh my motherfucking god.
i was sceptical about all this new info and leaked spoilers about world of warcraft's next expansion.
but with a bit more solid proof about it all i'm allowing myself to get a little excited :D

http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/cataclysm/media/

i'm happy that the level cap is only being raised by 5 levels.
a completely re-designed Azeroth will be amazing to play through. essentially there's nothing wrong with how it is now, but its all so 'dead'. seen it too many times, the thought of levelling another toon through it is painful (the exceptions being the Draenei and Belf starting zones).
the two new races look great, i'm more excited about the Worgen - after all, i am Alliance at heart. a worgen warlock sounds good to me! (and will replace my human warlock, see i've planned this already). but i'll definitely be playing a goblin too. i imagine they're going to look quite sinister.
there seems to be a lot of theorycrafting changes too. stats being tinkered with - merged and/or removed entirely. that'll simplify things cause i don't know about you but i'm not into the idea of having to 'study' to be good at a game.

well i'm on an involuntary break from wow. i had hoped that after i was paid this month i'd be able to renew my subscription. but alas i am too poor even for £8. so on this month off i intend to use my spare time more wisely.
for starters, i'm going to get myself healthier. my job keeps me active and on my feet every day but i'm thinking, a little cardio and a little yoga wouldn't hurt. i also need to ask the doctor about a potential under active thyroid. i say potential. i read the 'symptoms' and some apply, but could easily have other reasons and it could be coincidence. best get it checked out me-thinks.

also terribly excited about november. but that's for a different journal entry i think :)

/sigh

2009-08-18T13:01:27Z

my subscription to wow has expired and i have, literally, no money to renew it. sucks to be me. we'll see if i can manage anything payday-friday.

i chipped a tooth yesterday chewing gum. humbug! it's sensitive, but it'll wear off right?

zomg! birthday weekend was awesome! got to see my mam and road trip to wales. my new monitor is sexy (22" widescreen).

last sunday was the one year anniversary of moving into my house with Bee. hoorah. we sorted out our living room finally. :)

thought

2009-08-01T22:34:07Z

thought provoking
http://www.cracked.com/article_14990_what-monkeysphere.html

woes!

2009-07-18T12:14:32Z

i hoped never to use a credit card again. well, that was the only time i will.
my excuse? pre-ordering windows 7. it 'was' worth it. would have cost me a lot more if i didn't get it sorted now. it's just depressing.

also that old vodafone contract has tracked me down. they finally given in and realised that 'mr' menolly doesn't exist and the can now talk to me. set up a payment plan with them. hmmn. more leeches.

because of my lack of money i have been discovering what it's like to not buy bits and bobs at work. no treats no buying milk or anything. on the whole i'm eating a lot healthier. but on the downside i'm having to rely on beetlebugbecki to pick up the essentials. sucks.

good and bad

2009-07-14T18:26:38Z

Well the good news is that I am in love with my druid. She's about to ding level 24 and I am having a lot of fun playing her.
I'm in a casual social guild at the moment which is new for me because I've always been in a very tight knit guild run by beetlebugbecki. I'm making allies and friends. Its new and awesome.
I'm going for a cat dps spec which I'm not good at but the research and experimenting is fun.
I intend to give my druid (and my main shaman) an update on my fourtotems comm soon. I have screenshots and ramblings to post!!!

The bad. Well it's bad because I fail so hard. One of the guys I work with came onto me in a serious way yesterday and I freaked out. Obviously he doesn't know I did. But my brain, even today is fucked.
There's only one guy that does not make panic in that respect and we no longer talk that's okay. Such is life. I don't know why he was different but... Yeh. Now I have ugly brain nonsense to cope with on top of my appaling financial situation.

On a brighter note. Tea party tomorrow!! Strictly bring your own teapot. :D

lost

2009-07-08T00:54:45Z

i seem to have lost some friends recently.

the first is confusing and worrying. i don't know why we are no longer friends but there's no mistaking it. you end up second guessing everything you said or did to find out if it was your fault after all.
if i were able to relive the last 5 months i can be 100% sure i'd do everything differently. i think you can spend so much time trying to behave how you think you should, it end up being the very thing that gets in the way. you can spend too much time applying a cold logic to every interaction with someone.
be honest to yourself and behave as you see fit. not how you think you're expected to, not how other people tell you to, but how you feel is good and right by you.

the second. well i know what happened here. i just don't know what to do about it. as far as i am aware i have done what i can, apologised. but i've apologised for the wrong thing. which is frustrating to me because the 'right' thing doesn't exist. all it would have taken was an explanation, but that was pushed aside. the next move isn't mine.

lessons in life i suppose.

:)

2009-07-07T15:08:57Z

today i am exercising and kind of bloody minded stubborn happiness.

hate

2009-07-04T23:01:53Z

i can't cope with silent arguments.

shouting, screaming, attacking with words? easy.
violence and physical force? been there, done that.

but silence? it tears me up.

heh

2009-07-01T01:09:12Z

So I bring you this update from my blackberry. This little piece of technology is fucking awesome.
I'm sat watching wrestling (Randy Orton YUM) while playing about on livejournal. Who needs a laptop right?

I'm getting brain fuzz a lot at the moment. I don't really know what's going on with so much 'stuff' I'm just, sort of, coasting. Letting things happen as they do and being the best person for it.

ding

2009-06-29T11:14:24Z

my shaman hit level 80 last night.
i did of course get a screenshot (will upload later).
not i need to focus on gearing. i'm in no way a raider, but i'd like to be pulling double the dps i am now. i'm still duel wielding the same pvp epics that i got at lvl 70 so i'm doing badly there.
it's nice to be back at level cap, even though it took so long.

LFG ahune. (because no i cannot solo him!)

readycheck

2009-06-21T15:59:30Z

okay now i'm ready to post.
saw TF2 for the second time today. amazing.

things i love;
autobots acting out of character. how cold was Optimus Prime right at the beginning, and his fight scene with The Fallen when he shears off his face.. or Bumblebee pulling Ravage apart? definitely not all that noble :)

Soundwave. shame he didn't have a bigger part.
Jetfire. lol. brilliant. was heartbroken when he ripped out his own spark so Optimus could use him for spare parts. however OP/Jetfire is awesome.
Bumblebee seemed sexier and more grown up. i'm in love.
Starscream. ah the Screamer we know and love. i adored his 'tattoos'.

i loved how much for screentime the robots got, we got to see them interact, talk, and a little politics.

things i didn't love;
autobots acting out of character. OP is waaay too 'good' to pull some of the shit he did in this movie.

the fallen. just hated his character. jumped up little shit.
the pretender. okay did no one else think it might be a huuuuuuge deal that decepticons are hiding, pretending to be human and getting away with it. a big deal that was dismissed too fast.
devastator. immense, but pointless.

i also don't get why that fragment of allspark gave sam information connected to the matrix. and what was that? autobot heaven? with the other original primes. i just don't see how that all ties in to the allspark.

not a lot that i don't 'love' really. just a few things that plague my mind.

character study wise, i found the Jetfire - Optimus Prime things sweet. here was Jetfire, awed at meeting a real life prime. and there was Optimus Prime, admitting he needed the help one one young human.

i didn't much like the idea of Megatron being an apprentice to anyone. in my head, Megatron is the big bad and i don;t like anyone dethroning him.

i also thought Optimus' death was incredible, obviously he wasn't going to stay dead, that's not OP's style :) but it was so emotional.

wicked score the the movie too. just like the first one, beautiful music.

i LOVE Bumblebee's feet. i know that's a little sick. but i really do!

i am now 100% re-inspired to get my TF tattoo. i have planned to get 'seeker' wings on my back for years. G1 wings seemed too simple but i think if i combine G1 style with Starscreams tattooed wings, i can come up with something perfect :)

shaman

2009-06-17T23:13:18Z

http://www.wow.com/2009/06/17/new-shaman-totem-interface-revealed/
oh my god!

version 2

2009-06-15T02:00:02Z

no please, call me Version 2.
hah. yeah we have a WWE reference here.

i have my new computer. it turns out that the problem with my old one was the hard drive. so a whole new machine was unnecessary but very much worth it. my new computer runs world of warcraft amazingly.
i'm also trying out windows 7. alright microsoft! i officially do not want a mac anymore.
i know, i'm as shocked as you, but W7 so far has just, worked. it's stable, pretty, compatible with everything so far both software and hardware.
so far my only bugbear has been the way the taskbar works. i used to have the taskbar pulled up to three rows, top row being the 'open windows', row two my quick menu and row three being all the other nonsense i wanted to get to but didn't want to go into all programs for it. W7 works differently in this respect

i've started using twitter. http://www.twitter.com/hexiel
hah.

Bee and I have started getting into the WWE scene... just a little. decided that the hardy boys/team xtreme were simply made of awesome, shame that all went tits up. planning to go to london in november to see all the pretty boys fight :)
might be slightly obsessed with the extreme enigma and version 1 (that's jeff and matt hardy to you mortals). hence the new nickname courtesy of Bee. version 2. :)

i could probably write about my adventures on wow for hours. i am so damned slow at that game its not even funny. my shaman is still level 78 (and a half!). but getting there. i haven't really explored the potential of my new computer by instancing yet. but so far, questing with the graphics turned UP is bliss. i have been distracted from my levelling by various alts. the one keeping my attention at the moment is a tauren druid.
genuine motivation to play has died. it died almost a year ago really. now i'm just in it to piss about and for the chit chat... oh wait that died about a year ago as well. lol. my new druid is definitely finding herself a guild to hang out with!
... seriously thinking about doing the same with my shaman actually.

friday this week means transformers 2!! /squeeee.

monday this week (oh that's today already) means route 66. attempting to get a group together to hang out for a few hours after work. not planning on drinking a lot, mostly its for the socialising.
monday also means 3 hours of raw (WWE of course..) jeff hardy vs edge vs cm punk... /gasp.

today i had one of those days... the kind where your hair is comfortable and has gone just right, your makeup looks natural and laid back and your feeling really kind of positive about yourself..... and you have no plans to go out! hah. good days always happen on the wrong day!

and to end on a significantly less positive note... i miss too many people right now, i either haven't seen them, or spoken to them, or worked with them, or hugged them recently. and it's murder.

in limbo

2009-05-21T13:16:56Z

i'm sort of, in limbo at the moment. just... waiting.
waiting for my computer to either start working again or for a new one.
few days ago my computer decided tghat switching on was completely overrated. flashed it's amber power light at me and refused to do anything. the day after it switched on all on it's own, failed, tried again. did some sort of system scan and was okay. foolishly i shut it down at the end of the evening to sleep and it never woke up again. it tried to restart again in the early hours of this morning but failed. i'm thinking it's time for a new machine. i can't afford that to be honest. but we reckon we can build something for under £300 that'll be waaaaay better then what i have been using.

i'm using my ibook at the moment. it's eye candy. that is all... it doesn't actually 'work' very well. omg, its like 9 years old. of course it can't work well, websites like this and facebook and gmail are desighned for computers with way more processing power than this. it's frustrating to say the least. and youtube doesn't work. and flash animations make it wet itself and run away crying.

i really need a new computer.

i miss wow. lol

i also had to get myself a new phone because mine finally decided to break completely. what i've bought to tide me over for 6 months is a downgrade from what i had. cheap, cheerful and familiar. it'll do :D

as for the other thing i was gonna write about. well, that man is hard work. i think i am just going to have to wait out his 'down' phase. for now... i completely give up.

i'm looking forward to tomorrows because i'm having lunch with some old friends.
amd sunday because i'm having lunch with old relatives :D (less of the old thank you very much.....) it's looking like it's going to be a good weekend.

having a bit of a cry.

2009-05-07T10:43:48Z

it's a lie you know.
i let myself believe untruths despite my better judgment because they made me feel good. a little bit special.

but today i just feel cut. perhaps it's a small thing, but if i've walked all the way into town, tried to call 8 times (you said to call just in case you weren't awake), text 3 times and knocked on your door, after being asked to do so, presumable because you like to spend time with me?... it's usually polite to 'be' there... or at least not wherever it is that you are.

small things

2009-05-02T22:18:43Z

i just wish that 'promise' meant a little more. even if it is over something trivial.

gotta be here more often...

2009-04-28T01:02:42Z

i actually have a lot of personal stuff i could write here, but i think that's something for a f-locked post at some other time. lets stick to the light hearted stuff :)

we'll start with my vanity. my eternal quest to diet continues to fail. i swear i'm not even trying. bad mell. bad!
i have a log day ahead of me tomorrow so i'll have to plan out my dinner properly.

my dreads are fluffier and messier than ever after being dyed. i'm hoping to get some more maintenance done on them over the weekend by beetlebugbecki. i keep saying "oh it's okay, leave it for today" but i think the time has come to just give in, watch some movies and get it sorted :)

and now the geeky stuff.
was reading a transformers blog and came across this little gem.
http://movieblog.ugo.com/movies/roberto-orci-frank-welker-to-officially-voice-soundwave
hell yes.
now all they need to do is get leonard nimoy on board and we can all be happy panda's about it :)

wouldn't normally warcraft it up here, after all, i made a community for that kind of thing. but i've hit level 77 on my shaman and invested in cold weather flying and i'm feeling quite smug about it. first thing i did was to farm herbs in icecrown and then get my exploring achievements :)
feels good to be able to fly around again. 3 more levels to go. and apparently i'm doing very well with my playing and dps.
i'll write more about my spec and spell rotation later. that's enough wow-talk for now.

word association

2009-03-22T13:48:24Z

http://subliminal.lunanina.com

1. Studio :: white sheets
2. Meetup :: music
3. Ostrich :: egg
4. Jokes :: joke man (there's a work reference here)
5. Estranged :: trees (err what?)
6. Random :: safety pin
7. Slap :: bitch slap!
8. Hotel room :: clock
9. Inscribe :: herbs (oooh dear..)
10. Polar :: bear

and in other news. i'm confused. Bee assures me i don't need to be. i disagree. lol
i have warcraft related ramblings to add to my fourtotems comm.

part two

2009-03-15T16:27:28Z

i didn't actually get to sleep until about 6am in the end.

am i the only person that finds a sunrise a little depressing. it;s okay if you wake up and see it. but to not go to sleep and then for the sky to get brighter.. bleh! go away sunshines!! you are not welcome!

michelle is coming round for a gossip this evening so i'm cooking a roast dinner tonight. i love to cook.
wtb more oven trays though.

so far i've failed to mention my hair... oh my hair....
becki spent 2 weeks dreading it, i have 80. yes 80 and it's not even a full head of dreads. i left my fringe loose because i don't look right without one. they need a lot of maintenance right now. i can't do it on my own. but i have a lot of loose hairs that need to be crochet in and the ends needs to be sorted. i have to say, it's really nice not having to straighten it every day :)

i really reeeeally want to listen to the prodigy. but tenacious d is funny so they'll do.

ending here.. again because i need to go to the co-op and buy stuff for dinner :)

this is...

2009-03-15T05:12:29Z

this is one of those posts where i sit here and go on and on about the last few weeks of my life and everyone else doesn't read it and doesn't care :D this has never stopped me before!!

i have this feeling in my stomach. the only way i can describe it is that feeling of dread and horror. but it's the exact opposite. i don't know, i just want to smile today. it's great.

yesterday i was followed by a Dementor. I could not shake the feeling of negativity whatsoever. but i had a reason for that. i had a nightmare that two people i frequently work with were killed. their line of work is pretty dangerous and following other events that i won't go into, this dream was just a little too close.

today was a pretty awesome day work was made of pants as usual. though we did have some drama later in the day when the police turned up chasing a group of guys hell bent of causing trouble. we believe that they were kicking up because one of their group had been arrested for shoplifting. the police were giving it large at us as well for not reporting that they'd stolen alcohol from us. heh. so our resident storewatch bloke and Cloe went and set the record straight, those guys, hadn't set foot in our store and that they ought to get their facts right before accusing our staff of not doing their job. :) /smug

after work was fun as well as Bee, Vicky and I set about cheering up a heartbroken Xan. the evening was a success.

ending it here cause it's 5am and i need to sleep.