DW busy blogging


i hoped never to use a credit card again. well, that was the only time i will.
my excuse? pre-ordering windows 7. it 'was' worth it. would have cost me a lot more if i didn't get it sorted now. it's just depressing.

also that old vodafone contract has tracked me down. they finally given in and realised that 'mr' menolly doesn't exist and the can now talk to me. set up a payment plan with them. hmmn. more leeches.

because of my lack of money i have been discovering what it's like to not buy bits and bobs at work. no treats no buying milk or anything. on the whole i'm eating a lot healthier. but on the downside i'm having to rely on beetlebugbecki to pick up the essentials. sucks.
WOW druid

good and bad

Well the good news is that I am in love with my druid. She's about to ding level 24 and I am having a lot of fun playing her.
I'm in a casual social guild at the moment which is new for me because I've always been in a very tight knit guild run by beetlebugbecki. I'm making allies and friends. Its new and awesome.
I'm going for a cat dps spec which I'm not good at but the research and experimenting is fun.
I intend to give my druid (and my main shaman) an update on my fourtotems comm soon. I have screenshots and ramblings to post!!!

The bad. Well it's bad because I fail so hard. One of the guys I work with came onto me in a serious way yesterday and I freaked out. Obviously he doesn't know I did. But my brain, even today is fucked.
There's only one guy that does not make panic in that respect and we no longer talk that's okay. Such is life. I don't know why he was different but... Yeh. Now I have ugly brain nonsense to cope with on top of my appaling financial situation.

On a brighter note. Tea party tomorrow!! Strictly bring your own teapot. :D
TFA bb shame


i seem to have lost some friends recently.

the first is confusing and worrying. i don't know why we are no longer friends but there's no mistaking it. you end up second guessing everything you said or did to find out if it was your fault after all.
if i were able to relive the last 5 months i can be 100% sure i'd do everything differently. i think you can spend so much time trying to behave how you think you should, it end up being the very thing that gets in the way. you can spend too much time applying a cold logic to every interaction with someone.
be honest to yourself and behave as you see fit. not how you think you're expected to, not how other people tell you to, but how you feel is good and right by you.

the second. well i know what happened here. i just don't know what to do about it. as far as i am aware i have done what i can, apologised. but i've apologised for the wrong thing. which is frustrating to me because the 'right' thing doesn't exist. all it would have taken was an explanation, but that was pushed aside. the next move isn't mine.

lessons in life i suppose.
TFA screamer unhappy quote


i can't cope with silent arguments.

shouting, screaming, attacking with words? easy.
violence and physical force? been there, done that.

but silence? it tears me up.
TF Shockwave


So I bring you this update from my blackberry. This little piece of technology is fucking awesome.
I'm sat watching wrestling (Randy Orton YUM) while playing about on livejournal. Who needs a laptop right?

I'm getting brain fuzz a lot at the moment. I don't really know what's going on with so much 'stuff' I'm just, sort of, coasting. Letting things happen as they do and being the best person for it.
WOW shaman


my shaman hit level 80 last night.
i did of course get a screenshot (will upload later).
not i need to focus on gearing. i'm in no way a raider, but i'd like to be pulling double the dps i am now. i'm still duel wielding the same pvp epics that i got at lvl 70 so i'm doing badly there.
it's nice to be back at level cap, even though it took so long.

LFG ahune. (because no i cannot solo him!)
TFM deception


okay now i'm ready to post.
saw TF2 for the second time today. amazing.
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i am now 100% re-inspired to get my TF tattoo. i have planned to get 'seeker' wings on my back for years. G1 wings seemed too simple but i think if i combine G1 style with Starscreams tattooed wings, i can come up with something perfect :)